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Before I knew Christ
I never heard the gospel as a child. Never went to a church. When I in about 3rd grade A Girl named Esther gave me my first cross and bible and told me the nativity story. She was Catholic. I knew something was special and I knew it was true but did not know what to do.
How I came to Christ
When I was 18 I moved from home. The next door neighbors were all saved and preached day and night to me until I got it one night; alone in my room, on my knees suddenly I could read the bible and it was in English for the first time. I joined their church and learned much. Unfortunately I knew something was wrong and I was overwhelmed and left after only 18 months. Turns out I left before my faith could be shaken. I found out 20 years later that only a year after I left the church that it all fell apart because of leaders greed and sin with others. After I left I never forgot what I knew in my heart but I lived life without fear of God. I walked without Him in my life for many years.
How I came back
Off and on I tried to find God again. Not sure where to look I searched all the wrong places. I knew He was there but could not seem to find the path. Then I nearly lost my children. We were forced apart for several weeks by circumstance and I found through the loss of those I loved most that only One could help us become a family again. I prayed and meant it. I knew he heard me. I had faith. I cried for mercy and forgiveness making the age old promise we all do in hard times never to leave Him again. I meant it. So far so good.
Since then
I have been trying to find that perfect place with God. Trying different churches again and through circumstance(fate) Once again God was inundating me with signs. I thought He was leading me to become Catholic but now I know it was means to gain. I love and will always love the Catholic Church as I feel so close to Simon Peter who was the founder, but oddly enough Contemporary Christian Music has me on the path I am on now. I because of circumstances and God’s will going to church online. It’s not bad at all. I am in constant contact with God’s people in many different churches. I bible study and read the sermons. I am truly content, hearing the voice of God, living like I should, praying and reading every day, all day. I am changed and truly filled with the Spirit.
Retrospect
I can look back on nearly every moment of my life now and see how God used every event to lead me here, now. I am too much like Peter though, no matter how many miracles God performs just for me I am amazed. No doubts just constantly surprised by His love. I think God chuckles and people like me. I have taken much of him time and patience and my sincere prayer is that I make Him proud in the end.
